Arotoamin

Flesh and bone Blood and veins Nerves and tendons That's all it is Electricity and brainwaves Action and reaction Cause and consequence That's all it is But my flesh is red and blistered and my bones ache My blood and veins are one fire Nerves and tendons hiss in pain The pain is all that is Electricity is unpredictable and brainwaves are scattered Bad action, worse reaction Unkown cause, terrible consequence Confusion is all there is Body is drained and mind is tired Soul is worn and frayed Need some renewal, some release But neither come easily So young, yet youth is gone You won't live forever... Sad, isn't it? Wanti

The defenses are down The volume's up Throw my clothes on the floor It's time for me to let go It's 3:30 Time to dance Lock the door Let no one see Feel the bass pound Feel the rhythm in my body Just forget about everything I need some release today Inhibitions are gone Flaws no longer matter The drama's forgotten With the music blaring I dance I let go of all control I dance here Naked and exposed Nothing matters No one's home I don't care Dance the worry away Twist my hips and raise my arms It's this time that I'm beautiful It's now that life has no hold on me With my hair flying about in my face Wrapped in music

Everything is caving in Watch it all fall apart again You're alone, you know it's true No one will ever care for you Sweet foolish child who fell from grace Pain etched across her pretty face Your wings were torn when you fell down And the heavens wept when you hit the ground Now you're crying tears of blood Life as dismal as the rain above Tear out your tongue so you can't speak Remove your eyelids so you can't sleep Life beat you down and left your blind And now you're crying, sweet child o' mine Sweet child o' mine... So infantile and so naive God left you betrayed and now you grieve Deaf and dumb, a godless devout Life i

My darling, hold me close whilst Heaven bends to take my hand My lover, tormentor, savior My air... Flesh and blood, body and soul All will be dust in the end Scatter my ashes in the ocean Let the waves carry me away Guided by the sun and moon The stars will lead me to you again And wrapped in your embrace once more We'll live happily ever-after...

Make it stop! The bleeding The screaming The shaking The aching The crying The sighing The need The disease The despise The cries The release The relief Make it stop! The tears The fears The want It haunts The desire The fire To crave Behave To hide To shy The tears So near The pain The rain The storm So warm The skin So thin And red And dead The cost So lost Inside The tide Wax and wane The hurt, the pain No hope, no cure Surrender Make it stop!

Cold confessions New obsessions Bend me to your will One distraction No compassion Move in for the kill Heart is broken Soul is chokin' I've seen you hear before Always drinking Slowly sinking I'm not wanted anymore Such confusion And profusion Open up your eyes When we met Slick with sweat Now you want to die Never stay Run away Never open up Stinging words Full of hurt Now I've had enough I'm addicted You're convicted It's time for me to go Always dancing Never romancing All of this you know Try to leave You moan and plead My iron will is breaking Stupid whore Love you more My heart is your's for taking

I'm no miracle Not a super-hero or mystical Not a striking beauty or model Not a saintly creature from children's fables I'm afraid, my dear, this is me Nothing special, to put it simply There aren't many things I could be Yes, I'm sorry dear, this is me I'm no scientist No self-proclaimed genius I'm certainly not famous But see, the thing is I know that I'm not perfect But if you try hard enough to see it You'll see there's nothing to fix I have people who love me A close-knit family Friends who love me implicitly This is what I see in me I see someone worth knowing Who will go places worth going And do things worth doin

Let the clothes slip from my body From my red and blistered skin Move the aching bones that support me The muscles that stretch in pain Watch the steam rise from the tub The boiling water my salvation One foot in, slipping beneathe the heat Warmth so desperate to penetrate me Flesh as cold as death So desperate for the heat Let the water wash over me Bringing a sigh of sweet relief Bones groan as the weight is lifted Muscles relax slowly Skin warms up tenderly But the water is scorching Minutes tick past And my body is still cold Closing my eyes, I lean back Please Lord, allow me some warmth Allow me some escape Drifting

Some days I feel so helpless Do mute and misunderstood How is it that I'm surrounded And at the same time, I'm so utterly alone? It's as though I speak another language People understand me more if I don't speak at all I feel so defeated So downtrodden Tell me this won't last forever 'Cause forever is something I don't have Time isn't on my side So please, salvation, make haste I've got it down to the minutes And it still doesn't feel like enough So much I want to do So many things I haven't seen Leave a pretty corpse behind... I wonder what they'd say? "She was so young" "She'll be missed" Missed by whom? 37 years to go.